vertigo

urgh. blardy allergy medicine apparently unbalanced the "water" in my ears. now i'm suffering from headaches and nausea now and then. RAH. the first time it happened my dad thought i was pregnant. hahah. like there's any guy out there to do it with. not that i want to anyway. the idea is very disgusting to me...at the moment that is. you never know what will happen in the future! *wink**

life's been pretty unbalanced. imagine seeing things and getting headaches all the time cos the world around you seems to be spinning or at least u feel as though it is. i can't focus in class. especially when i have to constantly look up and down to copy stuff. it's highly uncomfortable. i'm seriously considering building a giant dunno-wad-scope so all i need is to look down to see the board. haha. quite cool. but i have no money to get the stuff required. bah.

well. but this sickness has drawn me closer to dad. apparently i inherited the problem from him. so it's quite good cos he knows the medication required and all. plus. he brings me out to walk to get fresh air to make me feel better. it's great walking alongthe longkang place at night. we get to talk. and he shows me all sorts of birds etc. we saw cranes, an eagle fishing and many other cool stuff. reminds me of God's wonderful creation =)

he started talking about how old he is after realising that my prelims have started and soon i'll be entering a jc or poly.he sounded very sad..making me feel sad too. i just realised that HEY! i do love my dad after all. took me like almost 16 years to realise. boy am i pathetic. haha

so prelims have started. 3 papers down...a million more to go. apparently i haven't started studying for any other subjects. it appears that i never learn my lesson. i suppose it's very natural for human beings to do so. everytime we suffer...we tell ourselves never to make the same mistake...but in the end...we so. just like me and my aep. i tell myself that i'll never use paint for my paper 2 and shall just stick with monchrome black and white ink or pencil...but do i ever learn??? noooo....i think my paoer 2 ended up looking like some primary school kid's work. haha. so poster painty look alike. WAHAHAHA. mr teh shocked me today when i greeted him and he greeted my back and mentioning my name. cool. i thot he would have forgotten me already. besides. the only time i ever heard him call my name was when i was sleeping in class once. but then again. i think he called me "girl" heck. i always think teachers barely remember my name anyway. they just remember my face.

anyway...i think i screwed all the papers i've done so far. i'm having this horrible NAGGY feeling that i'm so gonna get a b3 for eng. i din manage to finish my ss paper. sob. and i'm in not a good condition to do any work now. bloody headache. it just won't go away. anyway..it's meli's birthday today. sooo..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU MELI!!!! i miss my seniors =(