hiatus

i'm going for a family holiday to malacca. and i dun even want to go. nevertheless. miss me!

will update on christmas, my holiday blah blah blah when i get back.

TATA!

watched chronicles of narnia yest with the arc members. haha. it's really nice. but i felt really extra among my juniors la. all my brudders pang sey me. wah lao. shit. i sound so ah lian. haha. i suppose when u no longer belong u no longer belong there. but i'm still part of the family la. just that i have "passed away" and joined the list of ancestors.

anyway..chronicles of narnia was really good. it sort of revived the dead passion for God in me. ok. not that i didn;t have any passion for God. just not burning enough for me. i was just reminded of so many different things about God.

firstly, when all the fauns/centaurs/animals bowed to Aslan, it reminded me of the verse "every knee shall bow and every tongue confess, that Jesus Christ is Lord". and weirdly, i was very tempted to shout "AMEN! JESUS CHRIST iS LORD. ONE DAY, EVERY KNEE SHALL BOW, EVERY TONGUE CONFESS, THAT JESUS CHRIST IS LORD. HE IS LORD OF ALL!" but that would be really embarassing and rude. but still..so much passion in me stirred up for God. i wanted to cry. for no reason. dunno why either. haha.

then, the character or Aslan reflected the character of Jesus so well. in every bit of Aslan, i saw Jesus. so endearing, so gentle, forgiving, self sacrificing. and though he is well respected, doesn't consider himself king of narnia. rather, gave it to the boy =) just like how Jesus came down and got demoted from God to man. it reminded me of how great and good God is. and it made me wonder how i admired and adored Aslan so much and, it's so hard to feel the same way, or even stronger for God. perhaps it's cos we can only imagine and not really experience or watch what happens. still, God is an almighty God and He is FAR greater than Aslan =) God rocks.

and lastly, chronicles of narnia stirred up a passion in me to serve God even more, and to stick with Him thick or thin. i want to be in the final battle with God, just like how the faun, centaur, animals and the 4 chosen ones did =)

fancy that. God taught me all that in just a movie =) that's even more fruitful than my QTs. anyway. i was on my way home wondering about what God has taught me in the movie when this question popped into my head. How come God is referred to a lamb rather than a lion??? isn't a lion more mighty and all???? why a lamb instead when a lion commands more respect and everything else a king deserves????

and during qt, i realised why while reading a passage. it's because God wants us to be attracted to Him because of love, because of who he is, His character, rather than how he looks like, his status as king, the things he can give to us. simple. =) We love God because He first loved us =)

yay. my God rocks =)

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today's outreach went pretty well =)
it's amazing how it didn't look like a huge turnout, but the funny thing is that most of the people there were newcomers and not the usual yfers =) cool eh???????? it's amazing. i really hope to see more people coming down and getting the opportunity to know God. what better gift for christmas?????

i managed to get steffi down for yf. i'm glad she's open to the idea of yf and wants to come down. yay =)

the drama was great too. even though i watched it before. i still find it funny. HAHAHAHA. i'm weird la. but it's really amusing to watch the new parts. like how ian acted gay and all. he really reminded me of austin from project runway. HAHAHAHAHHAA.

started giving out presents once the event was over. oh man. so pai sey. i forgot to take out the price tag =S hahaha. oh wellz. nvm la. i'm happy they liked their name on the note books. quite tedious. but i like it too =) haha.

i realised something about myself. i never or hardly use whatever people give me. like, i have an entire drawer full of gifts and it's all brand new still in boxers and bubble wrap all there. i just can't bear to use them cos they bear certain memories of each and everyone that gave me those gifts. i don't want them to get all yellow and old and ugly and dirty and then they no longer look aesthetically pleasant to be kept. nope. i wanna keep all these stuff for memory sake.

and i also realised..that there's nothing i really want. unless you can give me the ability to recognise God's voice loud and clear or a really deep and close relationship with God. but i suppose you can't =(

so i realised what i really am happy with for christmas is not the gifts i get, but rather the letters =) can help u save money and it means more to me as well. more personal and more sentimental i suppose =)

anyway, i had a nice day =) merry christmas. and now...back to my christmas cum encouragement cards =))))

YUCKY ROACHES!

EEEEEEEEWWWWWWWW. i was joing with my bro about a cockroach being in his room while he was pulling out his bed. next thing i know, as i closed the door to the toilet, i heard something. u know those sounds that bugs make when they fly??? YAR! that kind of sound. i'm superbly sensitive to that. so yea.

anyway. i immediately got out of the toilet and ran into my bro's room. and he just looked at me as if i was mad. i explained to him and looked at the toilet. and there it was on the door frame. A HUGE GIANT FLYING COCKROACH! all big and disgusting and crawling its way down to the floor. my brother and i sorta freaked. and ran to my mum. haha. she killed it with such force the body split into two. gross.

i'm sorry but i seriously feel like a bimbo. i didn't have very good experiences with roaches and i never intend to have any more experiences with them either. so i'm pretty much traumatised by roaches. i can just freeze in fear and cry if i'm really face to face...err...cockroach to a ya. cockroach. heh.

or maybe i feel bimbo cos i just watched AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL! i reckon it's the BESTEST show =) hahaha. i just love seeing the photos, noticing the X-factor in each photo, the spirit of the eyes, the composition of the photo and oh my goodness...WAY COOL. i love tyra banks. even if she looks like an ant to me.(note the shape of her face. doesn't it remind u of an ant??) she's like super cool and all and yet she's so sensitive and loving. reminds me of amy.

haha. but it seriously is hilarious to see the first episode when all of them are all untrained and all. hahahaha. so funny. there's a few that looks like MEN. SERIOUSLY! i think drag queens look better than them. and then there's this girl who is super butch. haha. quite funny. the way she behave and all. and then there's this girl who has SUPER THICK eyebrows that look weird. like u noe u paste masking tape on the edges u want straight and then u rip it out sort of shape. it's hilarious. if amy was watching it i bet she would be dying to pluck her eyebrows. haha. there's like super extremes. then there's the typical miss worlds - bimbo and oh. "i love world peace" kind of people. and there was this contestant who said she was doing modelling so she could earn money and donate it to UN and all and when asked when was the last time she did charity work she couldn't answer. hhahahaha..loser. oops. i'm being quite mean. but ah wellz.

yay. typing out this blog entry has helped calm my nerves on the roaches. haha. now i shall just await supper. it's been a long time since my dad last called to ask for what we wanted =( yay! i hope he brings back good food =)) i'm hungry =)

meet DA boss

meet da boss

i went down to my mum's office to meet...HER boss. not that i really wanted to. i dun fancy meeting her boss. even if he sponsored my grp annually with a few thousand dollars. i dunno. but i think he's pretty peadophilic if u ask me. either that or he's perverse. or maybe it's just my mum making him sound like one. har har. i mean. it's weird how your MUM's boss can think so highly of you even though when i first met him i was only in sec 2. and then he kept checking up on me via my mum. and i'm not even closely related to him. minus the fact that we sort of looked related when i was in sec 2. and i'm quite sure i'm not related to him. as much as i want his money. haha. he's filthy rich. haha. i sound so greedy =

first of course. i had to worrry about what to wear. bah. i worse a pink blouse. yes. pink. but it's pretty cool cos it has those funky pockets and metal rings on it. haha. why do u think i wore it???? and i had trouble with the bottom though. i wanted to wear pants. but i didn't have any footwear to go with it. bah. in the end i wore a white skirt to go with a pair of white sandles with heels. it's very un-gloria-ish. my mum said i looked sweet. oh boy. well. after this. or rather after prom i realised a skirt isn't that bad. so long as it ain't the tight tight type. haha. but that doesn't mean i'll wear a skirt often. only if the need arises =)

anyway. back to the boss...

when i just entered the entrance of the office (his office is right at the end) and there i saw him pacing outside his office, as if he were waiting for me. FREAKY. talk about weird. and then he shook my hand so enthusiastically with such a tight grip it felt as if he wanted to have my hand. and immediately he invites me to sit down and before i can show him the njrc booklet and all (since he sponsored us it 's only right right????) he ZOOMS in on my future, my ambition etc! he keeps wanting to be updated on my future, my progress in my studies etc. ok. i think he's lonely and misses his kids. i mean, his daughter was also in ijtp as well (but that was a million years ago. she graduated like in i dunno when. he gave me 3 years. 1990, 1994, 1995 i dunno which to believe since he only has one daughter there!). and he kept saying that i was like his daughter. intelligent, capable blah blah blah. i'm like ..ookkkkkkk... anyway. i think he's HIGHLY keen on psychoing me to take the medical route. i think that was what he did to all 3 of his kids since they all are doing medicine related stuff. and he told me not to be swayed by others. UH-HUH.

anyway. i was pretty traumatised by him. i dun think i ever want to see him again. though he asked me to contact him if there was a need to. har har. for more sponsorship??? going down to my mum's office has made me realised alot of stuff. ok la. not much. only the fact that my mum has been bragging about me to all her colleagues. talk about embarassment. anyway. her office peeps never gives PROPER handshakes. always so extreme. out of the 3 handshakes i had, the first was super enthusaistic and hard, the second was super....soft. it was barely a shake. more like a touch. and the third was SUPER HARD. i think he wanted to break my fingers or smth. ahh...and my mum told me there was another guy who shakes even harder. oh boy. and then there was this pervertic colleague who kept staring at me and smiling....yew. and he wanted me to work part time for me and he'll spend 2 weeks training me and all...and he kept interviewing me. like what subject combi, where i was going..blah blah blah. thank goodness my mum stopped him and took me away. her other colleagues were pretty normal. though there was this guy that reminded me of one of my relief teachers. eeww. but i'm quite sure it's not. well. one thing's for sure.

i'll never work there.
part time full time wadeva time.
NO TIME!

christmas wishlist

i'm currently listening to the bickering noises of my younger brother and my cousin. oh yay. they've been dropping by pretty often for the x-box, internet, computer and the like. i feel like my hse is a child-care centre. then again. it's a small price to pay for getting rid of my younger brother in the morning and free rides to school daily =)

i'm pretty irritated at my brother's "act cocky" attitude. He's acting like he's real pro at HALO when the truth is he sucks. and he likes to choose the really really difficult mode so there are more enemies to kill. to be honest, he dies immediately after he walks out to the battlefield and then he blames my cousin for being a lousy killer. wad an ass. my cousin too is very cocky. so if u put those two together they are constantly trying to vie for the number one spot. which both seriously CMI. ah wellz. small boys..

anyway, i'm currently dying of boredom. i have no idea what to do. the only highlight of my day is in the morning when i had a really exciting dream as well as my really fruitfull QT after that. out of boredom..i shall record that oh-so-exciting-yet-ridiculous-"it-will-never-ever-happen" dream =)

to be honest, i can't really remember, but i shall just record bits and pieces of it. it may not be in chronological order mind you.

i remember seeing some teletubbies dolls flying around the air doing stuff. this guy wanted to sell it to us and i immediately thought of it as voodoo. as it is, teletubbies are known for it's evil satanic dolls. why my friends in primary school ever found them cute i have no idea. anyway. i asked the guy whether it was some voodoo stuffy and he said no. it was some electro magnetic crap. forgive me. i have no idea what that crap is considering that i do not take physics.

i don't know what happened to the dolls. but i remember being stuck in some pathetic village-looking place where the toilet was in this cave-like area and when u shit u had to dig a hole. it was...weird. but i guess we didn't have a choice. i can't remember what we were hiding from, but i have a feeling it's a dinosaur or smth. next thing i know we're meeting this bunch of weirdos from another country dressed like they're in "my fair princess". they wanted to race with us. i wanted to cheat and help my side win. and my mind thought about puncturing their tyres. as i held my fingers in gun shape and pretend to fire, weird but true, arrows shot out of my finers to their tyres. oh boy. what have i been doing!!!? anyway, we all squeezed into the car. the whole world seemed to be there, but somehow there was enough space for all, even though we were sitting on one another =S anyway, the opponent's car had some crocodile like horses and horse carraige wheels instead of tyres. it was a very interesting sight to behold. the race was highly exiciting..with some horrible shocking situations like driving through a road block, road repairs etc. we had almost reached the end when i woke up. i wanted to find out who would win, though the obvious was us. so i went back to sleep. this time, i was sitting in the back and the driver had changed. now the driver is my mum. oh my CRAP! she almost drove into an old lady at a bus stop who was hugging the bus no. pole for her dear life. it all seemed so real. thank goodness it's not. PHEW. and guess who won?!?!!??!

i dunno. cos before we reached the end point i woke up again. and it all seemed like dejavu cos i wondered who won again. haha. it's quite fun actually. exciting dreams. those stuff are no longer what i call nightmares =)

anyway. i've been spending the day writing encouragement cards, doing christmas presents and i'm dying. so i took a break and ended up eating all the leftovers from lunch - fried noodles and spaghetti. shit. i'm gonna grow fat. anyway..since i'm the christmas presents thingy. i might as well write down what I want for christmas too!

spiritual stuffies:

• a closer relationship with God
• more faith
• the ability to recognise God's voice
• a new bible(NIV please)
• a bible cover (so i can put a highlighter and pen inside!)
• christian books (like those on how to know God better, have a daily encounter with God self-help books)
• why not just get me a voucher from mount zion/trumpet praiselife book store etc. =)

electronics:

• the cool sudoku hand held device. haha.
• an mp3 player. i just want to listen to my christian music for qt and not have to on my computer everytime i want to listen. it's very distracting. oh. an ipod would do fine too =)
• a new laptop or a computer with loads of memory space, internet access etc.
• more disk space

others:

• jeans
• berms
• shorts
• school bag
• pencil box
• crumpler
• book vouchers
• eat sushi!
• more $$$
• bed
• hse
• room

what's your problem?????

i seriously have no idea what is wrong with this girlfriend of mine.

knowing she is such a sensitive little girl, i try not to tell her anything or just interact with her for fear that somehow, without meaning to, i offend her. once again. i did it again. just by asking her where she got posted to and where i got posted to. go ahead...be jealous i got into SA and you didn't. boo hoo. sob cry. whatever. i tried to comfort her whatsoever. she seemed happy to be in whichever school she was posted to. so the conversation of which jc didn't last long.

i kept quiet when she was complaining on her blog cos i thought it was just a phrase. and i understood cos i know i would feel that way as well so i just left her to cool off. i was hurt at whatever she said though. HOWEVER..she smsed me out of the blues just to tell me she was jealous and all sorts of other stuff. i got sort of annoyed. and even more hurt of course. it's not my fault that i thought God has plans for me in SA and all. i mean like HELLO!!!??!?? you thought so too?!!?! we're humans and sometimes we make mistakes. i can't say that i understand God's voice superbly well. honestly, i am desperately trying to figure out his voice among my friends, satans and mine. so forgive me if you must. and hey. good for me if most of my chruch mates and friends made it there. but if you haven't realised by now, alot of other people from our school are going where u're going too. so you probably will have MANY other friends there as well. probably more.

i don't see why you should complain about how people try and put you down, how they dump the blame on you etc just because u are nice whatsoever, but that doesn't mean you can plomp all your discontentment on me either.

i'm sorry if you're annoyed at my attitude towards you. my ignorance to your feelings. my insensitivity. but i do hope you'll accept whatever i have to say to you in a letter i will send.

God bless you.

new layout!

woohoo!! haha. as u can see..i did a new layout. ok. this wasn't supposed to be a new layout originally. it was a design for our cg shirt. it can come in different colours! ah yes. the wonders of photoshop =D

24/7 for Jesus. i wanna live my life like that. it's gonna be difficult. but hey! good things dun come easy =)

we went out for cg lunch today at cafe cartel. heh. the food is yummy =) it was weirdly quiet when all the food had arrived and we were all just eating. sort of reminded me of meal times with the brudders. ah wellz. after we were done i pretty much had fun just re-decorating the leftovers, taking from deb (her tartar sauce and lettuce), cheryl and christina (their baby carrots) and kelvin (his ribs bones), cheese left over from the bread etc. and HEY! it looked pretty good. i must say...they should seriously hire me. HEH. we had a really nice waitress. her name was IAN ONG. weird. i think she just took someone else's tag and used it. but she was COOL =) she joined us for jokes and all. i like such people =) nice and friendly. oh. apart from creating a new dish, we were pretty much amused by nick and kelvin's childishness. they were drawing retarded stuff like shit and caricatures of one another. oh. and we were also highly tickled by the weird jobs such as advertising for starhub. apparently they were paid $7 an hour to stand outside PS holding a newspaper which was the ad and pretend to read it though every page is the same thing. haha. it was really funny how people wanted to take photos of them.

we went off to play pool after that. oh man. i seriously suck at pool. haha. still, my cg mates were really kind. ok. minus daniel who was laughing his head off at every retarded mistake we made. how typical. someone needs to whack him. eugene taught me how to play pool after the others left. leaving christina, eugene and i. so now he's my SHIFU too. yay. now i have 2 eugenes as shifus teaching me different stuff. SWEET =) now i think pool's fun...once u get the hang of it that is. heh.

i went back to find my family who were shopping. seriously..the only shopping that truly amuses me is shopping in art stores, furniture stores, and TOY STORES! haha. i'm still a kid. not to forget my beloved photoshop as well =) i hate being with my family. i don't know why. i know i'm not supposed to and all. but yea. i just can't tolerate being with them. their voices itself irks me. i'm trying to love them and accept them etc. but it's just so HARD....RAH. i'm envious of people with nice close families and sort of wish my family was like that. but on the other hand, having that bad relatioship with my family makes me not want to be close anymore. call me fickle. i can't wait to get a job so i don't need to rely on my parents anymore. MUAHAHA. ah wellz.

i've made up my mind. i'll go to SA for the first 3 months. project serve.....well..after As????

postings for 1st 3 mths

i dreamt that i got into nanyang. and i almost died of shock. thank goodness it was just a dream. i got so freaked out i went to check my postings immediately even though it was 10 yet. i wanted to give it a shot. lo and behold. it was up already. thank God!

i got in SAJC. **victory dance** yay. i'm gonna have peeps like su hui, deb, cheryl, tsura, brandon,yijie and eugene. haha. ok the last 4 guys dun really matter to me cos i barely know them...but i love the first 3 girls. heh. it's so exciting! at least i know i won't be alone or smth. plus. since most of the yfers our age are going to SA, we can have prayer meetings, a SA CG hahaha...i'm all excited already. =) i can't wait to see what God will use us to do in SA =)))))

but still...i'm stuck between SA and going for project serve. i've been wondering about it. but now that i know i'm going to SA makes it even harder. i'm wondering if that's really what God wants me to do and yea...it's so DIFFICULT.. RAH..annoyance. how do you know whether it's really God or whether it's just you and your pathetic brain? rah rah rah. and it's not helping that my parents are ok with both choices. i wish i had less liberal parents at times as such as these. bah. God..pls guide me!

hse farewell party.

i just got back from the hse farwell bbq. i hated it. haha. i was...LONELY. BORED etc. sorta regretted going. i mean. going for a bbq with a bunch of people u barely know ain't the funnest thing.

i went there with a positive attitude. but that all died down after a while. heh. i'm sorry. but yea. sadly...sarah ain't around to talk crap with at night. made it worse. i felt..TRANSPARENT there. i was barely noticed. either that...or i've MIA-ed so much that they dont know i'm a sec 4 who has graduated =) nvm. i occupied myself by marveling and relaxing at God's creation. through His creation i felt His love and almighty-ness and it was just wonderful. i felt...weirdly happy and peaceful. haha.

i sort of got lost on my way home and i really freaked out. i tell u. if i didn't keep reminding myself that i'm 16 years old and i shud not cry when i get lost i would have lost it and start wailing. that would be embarassing. haha. taking a taxi is definitely not an option for me. very heartache to just waste money like that. oh wellz. but i got home safely anyway. i got alot of heart attacks though. let's see...first, i was pretty glad that i was walking on a familiar route. but when i was at some crossroad i panicked cos neither way looked familiar. i was quite lost, walking back and forth. in the end i walked back la. anyway..to brighten up the journey was some idiots. this guy was rollerblading and then he just like fell in front of me. i dodged and continued walking. and then i was walking on some path then this guy just started screaming words i can't make out at me. then he wanted to cycle RIGHT AT ME. bloody piece of shit. scared the hell out of me. he continued shouting weird noises that were like "aiieeyoomoarhs" (u get my point) and his friend was like sorry sorry. if not for his friend i think i'll be damn pissed. haha. i was quite scared after watching eye 10 when i had to walk down the underpass. what if the "people" i saw weren't people...YEEKS. anyway. i was safe la. finally got my way home safe and sound =) of cos i needed ice-milo to calm my nerves. i think i could be traumatised for life. remind me to never go home from east coast alone....EVER!

THANK GOD I'M SAFE!

camp, chalet, leaders retreat etc.

haha. i'm back. bet u guys missed me =DDDDD (pls do not call me egoistic for i have been greatly influenced by none other than...SARAH CHAN WEI QI!)

nvm. camp, arc chalet, leaders retreat have all been a great experience for me. all in different ways of course.

let's start with camp!
camp was fun. it was just amazing how God has touched so many people in camp. i was watching from the back of the hall all the time. seeing how people get touched, get slained etc. it was real cool. but i felt envious of them at the same time. i wanted to get touched by the Holy Spirit and all. but God had another plan for me.

before camp ended God spoke to me in a very gentle and still quiet voice, explaining to me why i wasn't touched like the others. and i understood from there. it was just so amazing and i believe that it was the best way to get touched by God. i mean. for me it wouldn't be any different if i went through all the big bang woo lala and then walk out felling all airy fairy with WOW in my head but nothing else has changed.

somehow.. i have a feeling God wants me to do something for Him, but i'm really scared and i dun dare to listen. it's scary....

anyway...to summarise...CAMP WAS A BLAST!

next. arc chalet
sad to say..i missed all that beach photo taking on the first day cos i had camp. but i dun really regret not leaving camp early cos i got to see ivan make a fool out of himself. haha...it's ok ivan you know we still love u =)

we had a nice movie marathon. at least i watched everything this time. we watched chicken little, just like heaven, the eye 10, saw, i do i do and constantine i think. haha. can't remember anything else we watched. i was touched by my darling head. she remembered my birthday! haha. she bought me this nice chocolate cake. so shiok. i had 2 chocolate cakes for my birthday this time. i love them. at least they know i dun like fruit cakes. haha..they were so hmm....i thought they forgotten my birthday or smth. haha. but no la...that's why i was pleasantly surprised when they got me a cake halfway tru something. so touched =) and to think i opened the fridge and saw a cake box there but didn't think anything...then again..i was blur as well when my family organised a surprised birthday party for me. haha...conclusion?? i'm blur.

LEADERS RETREAT rocked the most of all though. haha. it was both FUN and spiritually FULFILLING! double the F!
we went to this damn uluated beach la. sembawang beach i think. barely anyone was there. we had a meaningful time of devotion which was really appropriate for me la - "rejecting the praises of men" and yea. we hada fun time of playing volleyball. which i had no balls or idea how to play. i think i was trying to get away from the ball. quite scary. anyway. halfway tru the game we spotted a school of fishie swimming and pastor dave suggested we go fishing. HAHAHAHA. that was HIGHLY amusing. seeing how ian and joash went into the sea with a VOLLEYBALL net as a fishing net. haha. well. God called us to be fishers of men. so...as u can guess we din catch any fishies =) but i had a fun time playing buaya ball with ian, grace teo, cheryl tan, sarah, deb, chia ying. haha. ian was the only guy. thus the name - buaya ball. it's something like touch rugby. except the ball flies really high and far and it's more fun =) we get to do a victory dance after each score. haha. anwyay...we headed down for paintball =)

i loveeee paintball. haha. i think it was WAY COOL! i think it's something i'll never forget! i was in team A. pastor dave's team. the team comprised of all IJ people haha. we had deb and sarah - st nicks girls. joash - innova jc (IJ), pastor dave...err..ok. non-ij person and ME! really cool. felt like darth vadar. you could hear yourself breathe. and shooting your target is something really fulfilling!!! haha. it was really scary to have to take over pastor dave's position on the bridge too! but i was too small to be seen la. haha. i was almost killed by the barrel there though. at least i can proudly declare that i wasn't shot =) ahhaa.. but that's also partly because i kept hiding. amy scared the hell outta me. she's one fierce cat. MEOW! haha. forgive me amy. but u really remind me of a cat. but cats are nice =) so there. u know i still love u loads =)

we had the usual stuff, worship, plans for 2006 etc. worship was damn nice. we were a smaller group, but somehow it seemed more family-ish. even if most of the people there weren't close to me and all. but still. it was a very nice cosy feeling =) I felt God telling me some stuff. i'm not sure if it's Him or me, but i dunno. it cleared some personal stuff for me and it was real good after that.

i dunno, but i feel that Leaders Retreat grew my faith more. i supposed it's cos we had to put it down in action since we're leaders if yf now. and well. praying out loud no longer makes my face hot anymore and i can pray better. i was afraid of praying with the other leaders before yf but i joined them anyway, and it was GREAT i tell you. even though i was tired and all i din feel a wee bit tired during worship after that and yea..it was GREAT! i could just worship =) long time since i last worshipped like that but i know it can still be better. God rocks!!!! aiya...God just did something that i don't know how to put in words la. haha. nvm. i know, God knows can already =D

so there you go. my life as it was during the past week =) all consecutively happening. love u loads!
hahaha. and as amy always go.
gotta go darlings. kiss kiss!