what's your problem?????

i seriously have no idea what is wrong with this girlfriend of mine.

knowing she is such a sensitive little girl, i try not to tell her anything or just interact with her for fear that somehow, without meaning to, i offend her. once again. i did it again. just by asking her where she got posted to and where i got posted to. go ahead...be jealous i got into SA and you didn't. boo hoo. sob cry. whatever. i tried to comfort her whatsoever. she seemed happy to be in whichever school she was posted to. so the conversation of which jc didn't last long.

i kept quiet when she was complaining on her blog cos i thought it was just a phrase. and i understood cos i know i would feel that way as well so i just left her to cool off. i was hurt at whatever she said though. HOWEVER..she smsed me out of the blues just to tell me she was jealous and all sorts of other stuff. i got sort of annoyed. and even more hurt of course. it's not my fault that i thought God has plans for me in SA and all. i mean like HELLO!!!??!?? you thought so too?!!?! we're humans and sometimes we make mistakes. i can't say that i understand God's voice superbly well. honestly, i am desperately trying to figure out his voice among my friends, satans and mine. so forgive me if you must. and hey. good for me if most of my chruch mates and friends made it there. but if you haven't realised by now, alot of other people from our school are going where u're going too. so you probably will have MANY other friends there as well. probably more.

i don't see why you should complain about how people try and put you down, how they dump the blame on you etc just because u are nice whatsoever, but that doesn't mean you can plomp all your discontentment on me either.

i'm sorry if you're annoyed at my attitude towards you. my ignorance to your feelings. my insensitivity. but i do hope you'll accept whatever i have to say to you in a letter i will send.

God bless you.