hse farewell party.

i just got back from the hse farwell bbq. i hated it. haha. i was...LONELY. BORED etc. sorta regretted going. i mean. going for a bbq with a bunch of people u barely know ain't the funnest thing.

i went there with a positive attitude. but that all died down after a while. heh. i'm sorry. but yea. sadly...sarah ain't around to talk crap with at night. made it worse. i felt..TRANSPARENT there. i was barely noticed. either that...or i've MIA-ed so much that they dont know i'm a sec 4 who has graduated =) nvm. i occupied myself by marveling and relaxing at God's creation. through His creation i felt His love and almighty-ness and it was just wonderful. i felt...weirdly happy and peaceful. haha.

i sort of got lost on my way home and i really freaked out. i tell u. if i didn't keep reminding myself that i'm 16 years old and i shud not cry when i get lost i would have lost it and start wailing. that would be embarassing. haha. taking a taxi is definitely not an option for me. very heartache to just waste money like that. oh wellz. but i got home safely anyway. i got alot of heart attacks though. let's see...first, i was pretty glad that i was walking on a familiar route. but when i was at some crossroad i panicked cos neither way looked familiar. i was quite lost, walking back and forth. in the end i walked back la. anyway..to brighten up the journey was some idiots. this guy was rollerblading and then he just like fell in front of me. i dodged and continued walking. and then i was walking on some path then this guy just started screaming words i can't make out at me. then he wanted to cycle RIGHT AT ME. bloody piece of shit. scared the hell out of me. he continued shouting weird noises that were like "aiieeyoomoarhs" (u get my point) and his friend was like sorry sorry. if not for his friend i think i'll be damn pissed. haha. i was quite scared after watching eye 10 when i had to walk down the underpass. what if the "people" i saw weren't people...YEEKS. anyway. i was safe la. finally got my way home safe and sound =) of cos i needed ice-milo to calm my nerves. i think i could be traumatised for life. remind me to never go home from east coast alone....EVER!

THANK GOD I'M SAFE!