ok. enough with personality tests. haha.

for post-exam activities, we had talks from JCs etc, career guidance stuff and retreat.

the retreat didn't exactly help me to let go some of the things i have within me. but one thing i realised was how tight i'm clinging on to my time in IJ. to my brudders, my friends. i didn't break until deb came to hug me. and i cried too. it's sad. i don't wannt leave them. we were like hugging each other, sobbing away, refusing to let go of one another. i must admit. i never hugged anyone so tightly before. i mean. can u imagine?? all these while in my secondary life, they have been my pillars of support, giving me a sense of belonging. and yet, soon..it will all be gone. sad. i wana tell them how much i love them. tell them how much i appreciate them. i promise myself i will write a letter to every special person i know to let them know how great they have been. how much impact they have made in my life. especially my brudders. NJRC has really brought us close together.

i remember when we were in sec 2. we all joined ARC. at that time, despite the fact that we were from the same class, only clarissa and i were close friends. in fact. i don't think i ever talked to su hui or debby my entire sec 1 life. sad. i met novita during SYF/NDP. she was in front of me. as for denise?? i never met her till ARC. same for tiffany. as for anne marie. yvonne and i used to try to break her out of her bookwormness, trying to get her to laugh, smile more and even relax. well. we sort of succeeded. considering the fact that anne marie is a more cheerful person and you don't see her carrying a story book around during recess. instead. she EATS and TALKS CRAP with us. or rather..we talk crap and she laughs and blushes. the formation of Oasis has truly brought us to a higher height of friendship, considering that we won together, stressed out together, went high together and painted me together. how many people will get a chance to experience such highs and lows?? so much emotions. i don't know how to express. all i wanna do now, is to hug them as tightly as possible to tell them how much i love them.

thanks for being such great people. there will never be a farewell among us right??? i know i had refused to say farewell to all my friends during the retreat. i believe we will still remain as friends. just as khai and i have.
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i know it's time to move on with life. yet. it is all so hard. trying to decide where to go next is difficult. but then again. just being able to qualify for JC is already a tough task. i mean..the cut off point for sciences are like 9 and below kind. IT'S SO ANnoYING! i can't even get a single digit. let alone a L1R5 that starts with the number 1.

i love ij. i finally understand why God placed me in IJ instead of st nicks. instead of xin min, instead of any other school even though my PSlE score was below the cut off point. i remember how i chose IJ because they offerred aep. how that one choice, brought me to a school, in which i'd never regret going to. how the memories of everything would stay within me. within my heart. from sec 1 teachers, to peer support, to cca, to everything. all those things that each one did for me was just AMAZING. up to this date. i still remember clearly. if i ever have a daughter, i'll send her to IJ. i mean. how many school's are able to instill such school spirit within their students???? try as they might, the ij spirit is the strongest =D

the ij spirit's living on...
it's stretching far and far beyond.
it's never gonna die.
it's gonna live
in each of us.
and we will keep it burning burning strong
the flame of zest lies in us all along
always inspiring us
to go on....

indeed. the song lives it up =D