FOP

thank God i didn't go through all that boot camp for nothing. yep. i'm in for Thailand trip for OCIP =) it may not be a mission trip, but i can still go there with the correct heart and attitude and i can still gain from it =) i'm still sad though, that i can't go for the MOB trip. it's annoying how things are - when u can go, you don't want to go, and when u can't go, you want to go. ARGHZ. got a family holiday then and my mum thinks i'm jumping into too many things at one go she's afraid i'm gonna drown in all that work. just because i'm short i can't handle so many things. which is true. hahaha. i tend to allow such things to sweep me and drown me. to be honest, i'm quite scared that i won't be able to be promoted. esp with my current results. YIKES.

i'm really thankful for SFC. my QT hasn't been really fruitful and i don't know, at first i thought that it was all ok and normal cos we do have our highs and lows. but it turned out that it was really my fault and i just felt that God was throwing me questions to reflect on. even as Shirley and Mark spoke during SFC min time on friday, question after question kept coming to me. in a way it brought me to a self realisation, and it brought me to reflect, gave me a passion to seek God, it's amazing and i;m really thankful to God for always being the one who seeks me first =)

i sold my rapture tickets to go for FOP. i wasn't really sure that i wanted to really sell them, but i wanted to put God first and see what happens. so i did. and when i was there, i knew without a doubt, that i did the right thing. i did not regret my decision at all. it's been a really long time since i've really been able to lose myself in worship. i really tried hard for the past few months, yet, there are always restrictions.

it really felt good to be able to express my joy and freedom. i finally see the importance of lifting your hands to God. Don Moen was really good. i love how God has blesses him with this gift of worship and his songs really helped to quieten myself, to really connect with God, to meditate on the words and mean it from the bottom of my heart when i sang it.

i'm still amazed at how God managed to capture me and win me over. sorry to those who intend to buy me, because i'm sold out. (then again, i'm priceless =) )

Sold to Jesus =)