donut

life without Jesus
is like a donut
like a donut
like a donut

life without Jesus
is like a donut.
cos there's a hole in the middle of your heart.

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i feel lke an absolute donut with a HUGE GIANTIC HOLE i'm practically more like an onion ring then a donut.

i've lost my momentum in this relationship i share with God and now i;m back to square one again. why? simply because i neglected God because i was busy with my work, PW, exams etc etc. i feel bad. especially when He keeps blessing me when i don't deserve it.

it;s not as if i feel that God isn't by my side because i'm stuck in this dried-up pile of shit slopped on with peanut butter for extra stickyness because i;m in some mid/quarter life crisis. rather, things are going pretty well for me. but...somehow, there's THIS HUGE VACANT HOLE WITHIN ME AND NOTHING EXCEPT GOD CAN FILL IT. it's annoying. cos i somehow can't connect with God anymore and i leave my quiet times as empty as ever.

i don't ever remember feeling so empty before though. perhaps this was really what those non-christians mean by saying they needed to fill that emptiness within them. perhaps it's meant for me to go through this stage, to understand what they mean.

i need to sit down...and WAIT for God.

God. grant me the patience to wait for u until something happens

Father...don't leave me as a donut. make me a pau. filled with nice gooey YAM =)