the previous week has been pretty hectic. what with all the KJ admin work..photocopying, printing, sorting, writing names and then packing them for the little kiddies. then there was marriage alpha. It seems like because my boss and her husband work at church it's a work for 1 get 1 more employer for free kinda thing. it was getting kind of energy sapping and i'm just glad that i have bobo to help me through it :)

went for life con full dress rehearsals yesterday. sadly the only people from my batch were shaun and johnny minus the dancers cos they're involved in it and expected to come down anyway. Going back to SA brought back many many memories as i caught up with the nice security guard uncle who kept me accompany during my many many late nights at SA during the A level season. Looking at the classrooms, catching up with teachers (albiet how few there were..), reliving the whole life con experience again... it struck me once again how i superly believed that SA was God's school...in a sense that God was the head of the school...not that God had studied there. Remembered how God directed me to SA, how He brought me through the tough times, the friends, the wonderful brothers and sisters in christ to talk with and pray with and whine with.

i struggled with praising God together with the rest, struggled to say God SAVE THESE LOST SOULS. but if there was one thing that united me with them, it would be for the fact that I wanted God to work in a real and personal manner. I could visualise how despite the crowd singing and cheers, the hype, the music and the cc would just fade into nothingness and how time would stand still as each individual had a one-on-one encounter with God. where God would become so real and so personal. where we could get all our doubts erased, hurts healed and faith restored.

met up with half the bunch of brudders to watch PILLOWMAN!!! all of a sudden i'm a spur of arty fartiness...spending my money on such things! my first theatre show. for the past few times i've actually been to watch some theatre show it's usually a musical..forbidden city being my first, wicked, beauty world, dim sum dollies and now! the unmusical actual theatre show..PILLOWMAN!

it's really quite a dark show...goodness know what is going on in the sick writer's mind! nonetheless it was fascinating. i enjoyed the way the main character told the stories, some acted out, some told out with illustrations projected in a comic strip style and all the sound effects. cool stuff. smart considering how simple the set was. i think the play was about how past experiences in your life shaped the way you are, your thinking etc. that everything that you do or that happens have a long lasting impact on you, on the people around you, on circumstances. It's so sad that the pillowman has to do evil things in a nice way. it's scary to just think if he really exists :S eeeee...it'll be really sad if one day i meet the pillowman and he tries to convince me to end my life because i'm going to have a screwed up life in the future. it's either i kill myself now as a kid and not have to go through all that...or i grow up and go through all that shit and then kill myself. so depressing :(

the actors were pretty good. especially the main dude. i can't imagine the amount of script he had to memorise for all that. AIEEEE...and adrain pang was so sweet to get his wife the director on stage to thank her and stuff...everybody go awwwwwwww...

anyway..i signed up for auditions for short and sweet. i have no idea what the hell i'm doing and ah wells. i have a feeling i'm going to regret it when the weekend approaches!