I AM OOOOLLLLDDD NOWWWWW :( i can't believe that i'm reaching the big 2 in a years time. oh my mummy. that is terrible. on the brighter side. at least i have less candles to blow out.

a big thanks to the many friends and loved ones that wished me happy birthday and it once again reminds me of the great many of you who has shown that i matter to you guys enough for you to remember my birthday (and of course many thanks to facebook who has helped many of us, including myself)

celebration for my 19th was a simple affair. i realised that as you grow older, birthdays don't really matter much (or perhaps we are just in denial of the fact that we are getting older and OLDER). no longer is there the excitement that we had when we were mere lil ones (must have been that desperate desire to grow out of school and start earning money in the workforce) perhaps also cos there's a decreased desire for parties and cakes (desire for presents still remains, though what kind has changed drastically i think). yet one desire still remains - for friends to remember and be there to celebrate with you.

anyhows, it felt like an ordinary day, apart from the constant in flood of sms wishes and the yummy meal that my family had at some zi char coffeeshop where i feasted on chilli crab all by myself and cereal prawns. YUM. gone are the days of having western food. i stick by my asian roots when it comes to food. haha.

then went for cg where they surprised/stunned me after prayer whereby i looked up and there was my cake held by kelvin. tsk. to think i thought it was normal for my grp to be the last to start praying and finish. sneaky liz chay and loke. i didn't even suspect. oh the warmth of my cee gee :D thanks everyone. they made me blow out my candles almost fish & co style - from a distance. now blowing out 10 candles in one breath is no easy feat at a distance. i wanted to kill the last 3 candles that would go out while i blew and flickered back to life the moment i went out of breath. it was frustrating to the point of fainting and with great embarassment yet amusement.

my elder bro winnie was really sweet as well to have gotten me an art book for my birthday from page one. it's entitled "all men are brothers" -__-zzz are you trying to say something??? anyhows..before you wonder what on earth is that book all about, it's really and purely a graphic design collection of works from various male artists with interviews. while i thank my brother for being so sweet and making me so touched to the verge of tears with his awesome love for me, he tries to deny his brotherly love by saying that he bought it during a sale and it was cheap cos it was printed in singapore. hahaha. oh brother.....**RUFFLES HAIR**

and now...to my quest of art supplies hunting for the next quarter. oh gosh. even while saving on what materials i have left...i will be spending a total of 120 USD on color theory stuff and partial drawing materials. oh woe....and now i know i will have a short life. my new professor doesn't want us to get rubber cement. especially when using indoors for the fumes are toxic. i wonder how much of my life i have shortened during the previous quarter at scad :S no wonder all of us can't do maths for shit.