so a friend of mine got engaged today and though we're not close, I was surprised to be one of the people she texted considering how the only time we spent together were in our 2 classes during the summer quarter. I guess i'm supposed to be happy for her but i'm not :S i guess it's cos based on what I know from hanging out for her during that what little amount of time, I don't think she's exactly ready for the commitment and all. no wonder the divorce rates in america is shooting up. it just makes me wonder how anyone my age can be ready to step into marriage. i don't think I'm ready for it any time soon. I'm not even ready for the working world...let alone something that's supposed to come up further in the line. EEK.

anyhows. soo..the reason why i didn't hear from the alternative spring break trip to Alabama is cos they haven't gotten much applicants...ok. 2. me and another girl. which is really sad because the other kids who went on the trip last year wanted to do it again. then i guess now that we're older and more into school work and the industry, these things just take a back seat. so...unless there are 8 more people who are joining this thing, this trip will be cancelled. I'll just let it be since i have stuff i could do anyway.

anyhows. my cards went on showcase at scad and other professors saw it and complimented it, which is awesome, but what made me beam was when my professor told me that other professors have heard about me so I already have a reputation amongst them. WHOOT. network network yo! I've never been so...pro-active in my future my entire life until now. writing resumes, cover letter, puttting my portfolio together. being a grown up is not easy.

everyday i get reminded of my aging process from news of engagements, pregnancies and birth. OH SCARY SCARY :S not to mention the big 21 of my batch this year. EEPS. i'm still so young in my braiinnnnnnn!!! speaking of which..i think i was a dog in my previous life. or maybe i was supposed to be a dog in this life but something went wrong. i realised this when i was in bible study yesterday when it struck me that i like getting the door when the door bell rings, i get easily excited. when people throw things i just want to run and catch it...and somehow my mind processes that my hands are the dog's mouth (which is good cos i think it would hurt real bad to catch things with my mouth), i sit and move my head as i watch objects move, i get excited over squeaky things, i cock my head to my side and i feel one ear going up like when a dog goes "huh" and sometimes i want to stick my head out the window and pant like a dog.

i have a strange strange brain.