yay. so far. i'm on schedule for studying. question is whether i'll remember the stuff i studied after this. bahh...life sucks when ur memory is worse than an elephant or a goldfish. it's quite cool how before the holidays ended i was doing my QT and God just told me to go and do a schedule for my studying for the CTs. or maybe it was just me. i don't know. but it's quite cool how everything fitted in and how i still have spare time to watch soccer. hahahaha. YAY. and the coolest thing is that on the days that there's soccer at night, i dun have any paper or school the next day. WHOOTS! God rocks =)
my house is infested with ants. they seem to have nests all over the place. what is this??? i think a few colonies have started treating my house as their err...house. i have ants crawling on me. URGHZ. and worse of all. they are biting my fat ass....ARGHZ. stupid ants.
i think God has been really good to me. though things haven;t been great...with all that farness from God and failing of GP and arghz. everything. i was really feeling quite depressed at the end of the day. but i learnt and realised that all these while, God is just trying to teach me to rely on Him fully. and He gave me the concept of the sheep and the shepherd. you see, the good shepherd will give in His all for His sheep, giving them love, providing for their every need, protecting them even if it means endangering himself etc etc. u get the idea. and that's God. as for us, we're the sheep. and our job is to fully rely and depend on the shepherd. u know how dumb sheep gets. when they decide to go look for greener pastures they end up eaten or injured and the shepherd has to go and find them back. likewise, God knows what is good for us and if we decide to rely on ourself to get things that we think are good for us, we 'll end up hurt and all.
learnt this during QT today. we need to seek God by pushing hard
PUSH. you should know this: Pray Until Something Happens
H - Holy Living
A - Alertness to His voice
R - repentance
D - Desperate/Desire/Devoted
i like D the most. i need it the most too. i think it's the most basic thing. i mean, when u have it, automatically u will grow to want to live a holy life, u'll spend more time with Him, so u'll recognise His voice and be more in tune with it and u'll have a greater sense of righteousness yes? therefore the repentance thingy.
Read some Christian novel from the sch library and it's quite cool. language and all is really simply and lousy, but it's the content that counts. this girl was growing really close to God and her friends around her were all like non-christians and there was this bunch of kids that were like bullies and she witnessed them steal from the shop she was working in and they stole her car. being the bullies in the neighbourhood, no one dared to report them to the authorities simply because they were fearful. But God led this girl and gave her the courage to do so and He was just so clear in leading her it was way cool. throughout the entire process, she managed to influence the people around her and one by one they gained the courage to report to the police about what the bullies have done. at the last part of this series she got badly injured cos she was beaten by the bullies - bruises, broken jaw, cracked ribs, fractured shoulder etc. but her friends came and visit her and because of how she shone for God and how God worked in her life, her friends wanted to know about God . cool eh? hope we can see something like that in our lives. or even better. haha. why not? nothing is impossible.
Anyway, to those YFers reading my blog, pls pray for Joel Chong. He went for an operation and he's not healing well, bleeding quite badly. he's now placed in the Heavy Dependance Unit (HDU) something like ICU, but slightly better . yeps.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Monday, June 26, 2006
school reopened
it's sad that the holidays are over yes?? i'm looking forward to the next holiday. haha.
i got to stay at home more often than before, considering how i used to be out at ARC everyday preparing for the competition. during this holiday i learnt and realised my dad's love for him and because of that, i realised i'm starting to love him back too.
like all asian dads, my dad doesn't like to show his love for us openly. in fact, he likes to deny it, insisting that we love him only when he has money or when there's food for us. through how he acts childishly in front of me just to get my attention to all the different kinds of goodies he brings home for me just because he knows i love them, to the disturbing the rest of the family before we sleep just so he can talk to me...and staying up even though he's tired to watch soccer with me. perhaps i never realised his love for me in the past cos i seldom got to see him. he works at night, so when i'm in school, he's at home, while when i'm at home, he's at work.
anyway, apart from this dad, i have another father from above. i don't know why, but lately my relationship with him haven't been too good. my QT feels like routine, as if im doing it just for the sake of doing so and i'm not gaining much. i wish i could get back my love and passion for him once again. a passion and a hunger for Him, with the time spent with Him full of quality and so personal. it frustrating when u seem to hear bits and pieces from Him and yet you can't figure out what He is trying to say to you. ARGHZ. it's annoying.
so school has started and after studying in school today, i realised it is much more effective and i take less than half the time to finish studying what i'm supposed to, compared to when i'm at home. got to run after i studied too. haha. i feel accomplished. JIA YOU!!!!!!
i got to stay at home more often than before, considering how i used to be out at ARC everyday preparing for the competition. during this holiday i learnt and realised my dad's love for him and because of that, i realised i'm starting to love him back too.
like all asian dads, my dad doesn't like to show his love for us openly. in fact, he likes to deny it, insisting that we love him only when he has money or when there's food for us. through how he acts childishly in front of me just to get my attention to all the different kinds of goodies he brings home for me just because he knows i love them, to the disturbing the rest of the family before we sleep just so he can talk to me...and staying up even though he's tired to watch soccer with me. perhaps i never realised his love for me in the past cos i seldom got to see him. he works at night, so when i'm in school, he's at home, while when i'm at home, he's at work.
anyway, apart from this dad, i have another father from above. i don't know why, but lately my relationship with him haven't been too good. my QT feels like routine, as if im doing it just for the sake of doing so and i'm not gaining much. i wish i could get back my love and passion for him once again. a passion and a hunger for Him, with the time spent with Him full of quality and so personal. it frustrating when u seem to hear bits and pieces from Him and yet you can't figure out what He is trying to say to you. ARGHZ. it's annoying.
so school has started and after studying in school today, i realised it is much more effective and i take less than half the time to finish studying what i'm supposed to, compared to when i'm at home. got to run after i studied too. haha. i feel accomplished. JIA YOU!!!!!!
Thursday, June 22, 2006
future plans
haha. last night's match was interesting. exciting only at the last part when both teams realised they needed to fight to score. oh man. it was 0-0 at the end, there were alot of very near goals that they kept missing -___-''' anyway. i'm tempted after last night to watch the japan vs brazil match. hahaha. my poor dad has to tune the tv for me again. heehee...or maybe i should just go over someone's hse for a sleepover just to watch it on GOOD tv =)
anyway, i was really thinking where i should go after JC, esp since people are discouraging me from going to poly and all of a sudden i remembered about the design schools in singapore. YIPPEEE!!! haha. checked them out and they are a million times nearer to my hse than NTU. YAYs. and their requirements are lower. i figured that i could go to one of those design school and take up visual communicaions =) or maybe i should do interior designing..hmm..NVM...wait than say la
was watching some show on Malaysia and oh man. it looks fun. when i finish all my studies i should gather a group of close friends and we can go to rider's lodge and go learn how to ride a horse. and then we can go to this place like OBS where they have all that obstacle course thingy and we can go and do go kart racing and go white water rafting. haha. i sound like such an adventurer. but no. i think i'll die there as fun as it looks like. just as what marco said about rodolfo in my secondary sch lit book "view from the bridge" -- "he dreams, he dreams". ah wellz. but i definitely want to learn how to ride a horse. hmm...but the financial part will be a difficulty. nvm. when there's a will...there's a way. those interested, start signing up with me!!!!!!!
OH! and GUESS WHAT?!?!?! i ate the ban mian that i made with my maid today. haha. cool man. at the rate that i'm eating ban mian, i'll soon turn into one. i ate a bowl before famine camp, and i ate another one after famine camp, and on tuesday i ate another bowl for lunch, and today i had a BIG bowl of ban mian that i made =) YUMMY. hahaha. making ban mian is tiring when you dun have the machine to do it. it's a GREAT WAY to exercise and burn off the fats. but of course after u eat that big bowl of ban mian u gain more. heh. BAN MIAN ROCKS!
ok. i should go back to studying my chinese...just as what caleb said. haha. see caleb. i'm so guai. =D
anyway, i was really thinking where i should go after JC, esp since people are discouraging me from going to poly and all of a sudden i remembered about the design schools in singapore. YIPPEEE!!! haha. checked them out and they are a million times nearer to my hse than NTU. YAYs. and their requirements are lower. i figured that i could go to one of those design school and take up visual communicaions =) or maybe i should do interior designing..hmm..NVM...wait than say la
was watching some show on Malaysia and oh man. it looks fun. when i finish all my studies i should gather a group of close friends and we can go to rider's lodge and go learn how to ride a horse. and then we can go to this place like OBS where they have all that obstacle course thingy and we can go and do go kart racing and go white water rafting. haha. i sound like such an adventurer. but no. i think i'll die there as fun as it looks like. just as what marco said about rodolfo in my secondary sch lit book "view from the bridge" -- "he dreams, he dreams". ah wellz. but i definitely want to learn how to ride a horse. hmm...but the financial part will be a difficulty. nvm. when there's a will...there's a way. those interested, start signing up with me!!!!!!!
OH! and GUESS WHAT?!?!?! i ate the ban mian that i made with my maid today. haha. cool man. at the rate that i'm eating ban mian, i'll soon turn into one. i ate a bowl before famine camp, and i ate another one after famine camp, and on tuesday i ate another bowl for lunch, and today i had a BIG bowl of ban mian that i made =) YUMMY. hahaha. making ban mian is tiring when you dun have the machine to do it. it's a GREAT WAY to exercise and burn off the fats. but of course after u eat that big bowl of ban mian u gain more. heh. BAN MIAN ROCKS!
ok. i should go back to studying my chinese...just as what caleb said. haha. see caleb. i'm so guai. =D
SOCCEERRRR
had a 4/4 bbq today. ok. so like only half the class turned up, but still, it was nice to see Mr Ng again. after today i realised how much i miss the old school building, the blue tiled classroom, me sitting right at the back of the class with weixin and naomi..most importantly, seeing my brudders every single day. oh man. i want to cry just thinking about it. sob.
and for the first time in my entire life of bbq, we had very little leftover food. be glad mr ng. be very glad that you dun have 20 over chicken wings and all. hahaha. :D nice to hear Mr Ng's lame jokes too. hahaha. anyway, thanks to him, i'm motivated to watch the soccer match that will be on later tonight, or rather....tomorrow morn....if i can last that late.
my dad's such a sweet thing. he went to buy more fried springrolls for me because i just absolutely adore it. and he bought 5!!! can u imagine! that's why i'm fat. my dad keeps pampering me with good food. haha. and he even tuned the channels for me so i can catch the football match! and he's accompanying me to watch tv! i'm so touched **sniff** my dad should receive the best dad award thingy. pity my family ain;t the "SHOW ME YOU LOVE ME" kinda family.
anyway dad...if u ever happen to chance on my blog...which is impossible. considering how u don't know how to use the comp properly....haha. nvm. God shall tell u that i love u dearly =) you're such a cute lil old thing. hahaha. LOVE U DAD!
and for the first time in my entire life of bbq, we had very little leftover food. be glad mr ng. be very glad that you dun have 20 over chicken wings and all. hahaha. :D nice to hear Mr Ng's lame jokes too. hahaha. anyway, thanks to him, i'm motivated to watch the soccer match that will be on later tonight, or rather....tomorrow morn....if i can last that late.
my dad's such a sweet thing. he went to buy more fried springrolls for me because i just absolutely adore it. and he bought 5!!! can u imagine! that's why i'm fat. my dad keeps pampering me with good food. haha. and he even tuned the channels for me so i can catch the football match! and he's accompanying me to watch tv! i'm so touched **sniff** my dad should receive the best dad award thingy. pity my family ain;t the "SHOW ME YOU LOVE ME" kinda family.
anyway dad...if u ever happen to chance on my blog...which is impossible. considering how u don't know how to use the comp properly....haha. nvm. God shall tell u that i love u dearly =) you're such a cute lil old thing. hahaha. LOVE U DAD!
Monday, June 19, 2006
famine camp
i attended famine camp during the weekends. now i feel inspired to go and help them, go help build houses with the habitat for humanity, reach out to the little kiddies, sponsor a kid etc. it's like the most fulfilling job you can ever have! i mean, seeing how the lives of people were touched in the video, seeing how happy they were with a proper house to stay in and all, their smiles, tears of joy. oh man. made my heart melt <3333 ok. when i finish sch i'm gonna make a difference, go join them in overseas projects, sponsor a kiddie, give them LOOOVVEEEE!
i must say that world vision makes super good videos. i mean, they capture the most heart wrenching and melting moments that can't help but inspire people to help out and serve.
During the famine camp, we had to fold as many paper cranes as we could cos one crane meant a bowl of rice (roughly 100g) for someone who was starving over in some country. i learnt how to fold cranes and the entire camp just inspired me to help out as much as i could. folding cranes was something that i could do, so after the camp activities were over, su hui, briana and i were folding cranes till the next morning. haha. i'm proud to say that we folded over 200 cranes. YAY. that means about 20kg plus of rice for people!
the activities that we did weren't really effective in teaching us anything cause everything that is in real life cannot possibly be simulated. i mean, how can disaster chaoticness be created in Singapore unless it really happens??? the queuing at the evacuation centres etc, didn't really mean anything except a simulation and game to me. my dad found at me some evacuation centre and we went on to find more of our families. which consisted of like 13 people, which means that i had 10 siblings =S
my family was very quiet, and so called "supportive" in everything my dad decided, cos in order to earn money, we just went along with all the immoral activities like prostitution and even selling one of us away. we did of course earn the most money in the end, giving us 17 packets of sugared drinks just so that we won't drop dead and die halfway through the event. the only thing i learnt from it was that i could modify it to be used for other camps. haha. seriously, you can't experience the pain and actual experience of being sold for prostitution or child slavery just to earn money, neither can our "parents" feel the pain of doing so because we simply weren't related in real life, so there's no connection involved.
anyway, it was a nice time for su hui and i to meet my juniors once again after such a long time, to catch up with them and be updated on what is going on at ARC. it's quite sad to know about all the politics going on and on the friendships that has been broken or weakened when during our time they were just so close. we wondered how the brudders had still remained such god friends and realised that was course we stuck together throughout our entire 4 years in IJ and had no other good friends. haha. we sound like such sad people -__-''' but it's ok. i still love my brudders. haha.
i must say that world vision makes super good videos. i mean, they capture the most heart wrenching and melting moments that can't help but inspire people to help out and serve.
During the famine camp, we had to fold as many paper cranes as we could cos one crane meant a bowl of rice (roughly 100g) for someone who was starving over in some country. i learnt how to fold cranes and the entire camp just inspired me to help out as much as i could. folding cranes was something that i could do, so after the camp activities were over, su hui, briana and i were folding cranes till the next morning. haha. i'm proud to say that we folded over 200 cranes. YAY. that means about 20kg plus of rice for people!
the activities that we did weren't really effective in teaching us anything cause everything that is in real life cannot possibly be simulated. i mean, how can disaster chaoticness be created in Singapore unless it really happens??? the queuing at the evacuation centres etc, didn't really mean anything except a simulation and game to me. my dad found at me some evacuation centre and we went on to find more of our families. which consisted of like 13 people, which means that i had 10 siblings =S
my family was very quiet, and so called "supportive" in everything my dad decided, cos in order to earn money, we just went along with all the immoral activities like prostitution and even selling one of us away. we did of course earn the most money in the end, giving us 17 packets of sugared drinks just so that we won't drop dead and die halfway through the event. the only thing i learnt from it was that i could modify it to be used for other camps. haha. seriously, you can't experience the pain and actual experience of being sold for prostitution or child slavery just to earn money, neither can our "parents" feel the pain of doing so because we simply weren't related in real life, so there's no connection involved.
anyway, it was a nice time for su hui and i to meet my juniors once again after such a long time, to catch up with them and be updated on what is going on at ARC. it's quite sad to know about all the politics going on and on the friendships that has been broken or weakened when during our time they were just so close. we wondered how the brudders had still remained such god friends and realised that was course we stuck together throughout our entire 4 years in IJ and had no other good friends. haha. we sound like such sad people -__-''' but it's ok. i still love my brudders. haha.
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