first heard about this quote or rather saw this quote on jon's blog. it was too cheem beyong my understanding. then during assembly today, i had another encounter with it all thanks to some spelling bee show. cool stuff. then again. up till now i still dun understand it.

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

then again, that's probably because i stand on the other side where i see more inadequacy then the possibility of even being great. everyone's sending their applications to overseas universities. all those prestigious ones, getting projected results and stuff. i on the other hand.....don't even stand a chance to get into our local unis. maybe not even long kang uni.

sigh. i completed my chem syllabus and when mrs loi threw a POP quiz. chemistry became CHEEM-MYSTERY. i just felt so BAH.

what am i created to be good for? where is my greatness? i dunno. i really am unsure of how my future will be like.

sigh.

Today's chapel was the only good thing that happened today i reckon. our very last chapel. time flies so fast :( still, our rehearsal, the time spent together praying for one another, sharing. it really reminded me of how important accountability is in our Christian faith. we can never stand alone. on one hand while i know i'm not alone in all these troubles, somehow i have completely no idea how i'm going to get through it. thank you wan lin for reminding me to trust in God once again. thank you kevin for choosing this song for chapel and thank you wan lin for helping me to sing the song from my heart, enabling me to sing and worship during our last chapel.

When troubles come i'll trust in You

For i know You will lead me through

and I know You're faithful till the end

and when the storms are drawing near

when i'm with You i don't have to fear

You're my shepherd on whom I can depend

Through the day, through the night

I know You're always by my side

Lord You are ALWAYS here with me

there is no changing God in thee

You are the same yesterday, and today, and forevermore

Here on Your promises i stand,

You hold my future in Your hand

My solid rock, almighty God,

I worship You.

Dear God. pls help me to really trust in You. Give me the wisdom to understand my work, the perseverance to press on despite adversity and trials. Bring me through like You always do.