i love my God more than anything else in the world =)
WITHOUT GOD, I CANNOT.
WITHOUT ME, GOD WILL NOT.
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i have realised through all my years of being a christian that the more time u spend with God, the larger He becomes. the more amazing He gets and the more part of your life He becomes. and bit by bit, you are changed to be more like Him. even if u dun realise.
through my sharing with su hui and debby in easter outreach today, i realised how the position of God in my life has changed. God is now promoted to God of my life. i also realised how it in turn affects my character and actions and priorities as well.
here's my story....
although i was born in a christian family and grew up going to church, i was never a christian. Christianity isn't a religion. rather, it's a relationship shared between one and God. for throughout the entire first 12 years of my life, i never understood or experienced what it meant.
To be honest, when i was young, i couldn't feel God's presence or His love. i felt that no one in the world loved me and i hated the situation i was in. i would cry myself to sleep at times and ask God why all that was happening to me. there were even times where i wanted to kill myself or run away from home. yet, i didn't due to fear. and for that, i thank God.
it is because of this experience, that when i finally felt God's love for me that i was really drawn to Him. I made a decision in sec 1 to truly follow Him, but it wasn't taken seriously. i went to youth service regularly due to the friends i had there. as i started drifting away from my friends in sec 2, i lost the reason to going down for youth service. i stopped. and back slided. i kept using ARC as an excuse to not go for service. yet, in my heart, i knew the real reason. at the end of sec 3 in a camp, God came and touch me, healing me of the hurts and pains. i rededicated my life to Him then and in the start of Sec 4, i made the choice to really follow Him and to grow in Him.
during the past few years, there have been many ups and downs, but God has really revealed Himself to me during this period. through reading the bible, spending time with Him and his people, conferences and even serving Him. it's an amazing experience in which i would willingly give up everything else to have MORE of it.
You may not understand all these things that i have typed, but it is really only when u have experienced these things that u can really understand how valuable God is.
getting to experience all these is just making a decision.
if you're a christian already and you're not satisfied with your relationship with God, make this decision to grow in God today. Tell God you have decided to make that decision to follow Him all your life and pray that He will reveal Himself to you, that you may understand and know Him better. Admit that you have strayed and sinned against Him and ask for forgiveness and help from Him to persevere through the hardships of making this decision (to follow God is to pick up your cross and follow him and to totally surrender yourself to Him). it's definitely not easy, cos i this world there's alot of forces that will go against the right things.
if you're a non christian and u wish to have God in our life, just say a simple prayer
"God, I know that I am a sinner. I know that I deserve the consequences of my sin. However, I am trusting in Jesus Christ as my Savior. I believe that His death and resurrection provided for my forgiveness. I trust in Jesus and Jesus alone as my personal Lord and Savior. Thank you Lord, for saving me and forgiving me! Amen!"
there. i think i should stop. i have no idea why i did this entry. i just felt like it. anyway. if any of you felt touched or u responded (be it rededicating your life to God again or accepting God as your saviour), it'll be nice to leave me a tag at my tagboard so i can know and maybe do a follow up with you and just pray for you =)
God Bless you =)
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