what would i do without these people???

bah. my common tests are a horror. the irony is that for the only subject i studied and studied hard for...screwed up, while the one that i didn't prepare for was ok. amazingly ok.

the only thing i prepared for GP was to remember the definition for poverty. it came out and i spent like the first 15 minutes trying to plan out the essay, but i ended up stoning. i then spent the next 45 minutes trying to write out my essay which turned out to be like crap and i just knew it wasn't good enough to give myself a pass. so i spent the last 30 minutes re-writing it and i'm happy with it =) thank God for His help and blessing.

the paper 2 wasn't good though, i was really bored with the passage and i barely understood what it was, all that big words..arghz. kill me. bio was the worst of the lot though. as much as i thought i studied well for it, i totally blanked out when i panicked cos i just forgot everything i studied. ok. not everything, but the first few questions i did i just couldn't remember and i continued panicking. i dun think i can make it though the MCQ. bah. i had like 10+ blanks and i didn;t have enough time. de silva could see me panick like mad and just told me to guess. so without reading the questions and the options, i just blankly shaded what seemed nice to shade =( same goes for structured, though there's nothing to shade. i basically blanked out throughout and i almost broke down on the spot. and ms de silva wasn't helping by staring at me do my paper. felt so demoralised after the entire thing.

i'm thankful though for the people that God gave me to make me feel better =) was quite disappointed when my closer friends in class didn't respond when i talked to them. basically i was ignored. maybe they didn't hear me or smth. but it did make things feel worse. i went down to the cafe alone and i saw deb, but wanted to pretend that i didnt see her cos i was already feeling like crap. but she saw me and called me to her. i'm thankful for friends like her in church. really really thankful. she continued to encourage me and all. after she left i had some time on my own to study before the sfc seniors joined me. not to study but just to accompany me. it was nice for a change to hear people just enjoying themselves istead of just talking about exams and all and just continue to stress me out. even though they were noisy, it wasn't distracting and i enjoyed being there with them. their encouragement and all made me feel loads better. thank yous. maybe after this common tests i should write a thank you message to everyone who made my exams much better =)

thanks you guys so much. man. i hope the SFC J1 members will grow to be as close and family like as the J2s. what would i do without these people???