ever since i've stopped work, i wake up every morning feeling abit lost if i have no outings planned. it's abit of a loss where you go "...what now????" feeling quite sad cos now that i've stopped work i'm not used to not having bobo around or at least..not having a companion. it's getting quite lonely now and i have to go on loner outings which is quite pathetic and loserly if u ask me. I MISS YOU MUCHOS PACEY!!!

lunch date with pamela was alright. it wasn't superbly awkward cos pamela is such a talker anyway. there were a few moments of awkward silences..but i guess it ain't that bad. realised that after you grow up you dun quite accept everything your mentor says. you take it with a pinch of salt and though i didn't quite agree with some of the stuff she said i just nodded my head. i guess the whole misunderstanding between the 2 of us and the whole separation thing was good on my spiritual walk. dun think i would have grown much if she continued staying on in bartley cos i guess i was in some sense very dependent on her and my walk wasn't quite my own. yeah.

off to ikea for a loner time. i love ikea i tell u. i get very happy there. but it was so sad that pacey wasn't with me. there's no one to share my ikea joy and everytime i walk past certain objects like the baby bib and the cushion with hand warmers i couldn't help but recall the previous time we went there and laughed our heads off at the ridicularity of those objects. couldn't help smiling at the recollection either and then it made me all so emo that very soon we'll be miles apart :( paceyyy come with meeeee

oh pacey :( withdrawal symptoms is bad...the doctor is obviously handling it better than the artist who expresses herself more freely. hahha.

anyway..this period of time away from school has been rather good. learnt alot of things about myself and got to try out different stuff like rollerblading, playing the guitar and stuff...got to get closer to friends like chrystal and pacey and nat wee and learn more about myself like how i'm really quite simple minded and kiddo-ish, how i'm quite a social being otherwise i feel quite xianed and depress..haha not really...just xian...figured that i actually do like outdoor things cos it brings about building relationships...figured that i hate intruders into my close grp of friends..figured that i rather bum around and talk then to sit around and watch a movie marathon...etc etc.

this has been such a wonderful period of self discovery and i'm saddened at the fact that it's coming to an end soon :(