i feel a great sense of accomplishment today :) went to east coast today with pacey in the morning and she was supposed to teach me how to blade. God wasted our money :( we paid like 10 bucks for 2 hrs...but within the first hour the weather turned gloomy and it was super dramatic...like the weather in last night's channel 5 weekend movie - the day after tomorrow. it was all super windy and leaves were just blowing everywhere and it was cloudy cos the sand was being blown all over the place too. ack. it was so sad that by the time we returned our skates the sky cleared up. GRRRR..STUPID! maybe God was just protecting me from more serious injuries from learning how to rollerblade.

ah well. perhaps it was all planned out by God well. We met chris teo at macs and he happened to be there for his retreat and we crashed in. heh. he shared with us the different struggles that christian army guys face and i have this new found respect for them. He shared about his walk with God and a few of his friends' and seriously...their discipline in their walk is really very admirable and something that really really encouraged me. Once again i realised the importance of mentoring and spending time with the older ones at church to learn from their walk. so inspiring man :)

anyway, i side tracked. we met chrystal and cheryl later on and all 4 of us rented bikes to cycle. we cycled from the skate rink all the way to changi beach..that's like 3 whole hours back and forth and we covered bout 20km of cycling. haha. yep. SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna spend the remaining time in Singapore exploring Singapore and soaking in the atmosphere and time with friends. it's really quite sad that during this period of time i'm just growing closer and closer and closer to them..can't really bear to leave them....

on the other hand....my family is pissing me off and it's making me even happier that i'll be leaving this family soon. my mum once told me she got married to my dad cos she wanted to get out of the house. now i can't wait to get out of my house...and i'm not going to follow in her stupid footsteps just to get outta here. if it's not because i am financially dependent, i would really get my own house and move out of this stupid place. i will earn my own money and pay them back for my studies so i won't owe them anything and they can't use it to threaten me. urgh. they complain why we don't come home or spend time with them and yet they are stupid enough not to know the reason why and it's damn irritating when they act all pitiful and desperate and hurt and ask you what the hell is bloody wrong. urgh...______-up group of people related by blood. i wish i could sever it.