i have one more week left :(

really been having mixed feelings about in especially after since it struck me a few days ago that i've been in denial about leaving. i kept thinking i had a few weeks left :S

nonetheless...during the past month i've managed to catch up with a few people, church in particular and suddenly i learn to treasure them all and i'm really gonna miss all of them loads esp after the massive amount of time we spent together.

OH PACEYYYYYYY!!! i miss you loads!! ever since we stopped work we've barely seen one another :( :( :( OH WOE IS US!!!!!!!!! WORK IS EVIILLLL! I WANT TO COMPLAIN TO THE MINISTRY OF MANPOWER! IT IS RIDDING YOU OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME WITH MEEEEEE!!! :( :( :( :(

with everyone else at school and with my dear pacey at work...all i have left is chrystal and her dog tasha to entertain me now and then. oh chrrryyssstttaaalllllll now i'll remember u as my tall friend who walks super fast who is very wise and dragged me around comex like a little rag doll.

AAAHHHH-NEEEE-WWWHHHEEEEYYYY... i have discovered abit of myself too during the past few days of trying to shop for all the stuff that i need including clothes. oh somebody kill me.. for one...i realised i hate crowds and they make me all panicky and stressed. like i'll go abit haywire and i reckon if i do not restrain myself i may go mad and start screaming like how fann wong does in the current 9pm chinese drama. [YES I AM A CHEEENAAAPOK] or maybe i'm just a drama queen who likes making a mt everest out of my molehill boobs. HAHAHA. I AM STARTING TO BECOME A PERVERT...all the fault of art school. well you see..everyone else is doing cool stuff like analysing stocks (ok..this ain't very cool..but it's grown up) or reading case files like the bunch of lawyer buddies that i already have..WHILE IIIIII..will be drawing nudes -___-''' i'll never see people the same way ever again. BEWARE!!!!!!!!!! i may strip u down naked but all in the name of art. i'll never see a hot guy and say he's hot in a lustful manner. but rather..perhaps i'll judge their hotness based on how proportionate he is, or how nicely sculpted he is, with his muscles at 28 degree angle chiselled off each ab. hahaha. I'M BLABBERING NONSENSE.

oh..that's nothing new nothing new...

thus as i lay in bed every night and think (YES I DO THINK...much due to chrystal's influence and encouragement to use more of my brain..like why is the earth round..which i have found an answer to that! it's got to do with the falling of light from the sun on the earth. art is amazing. i got the answer from imagining the white blocks of spheres and cylinders we do from still life practice)..i can't help but fear and wonder what will happen if i regret doing art just the way i did in high sch? after watching crimminal minds the other day and some other drama, i noticed i'd like to work with kids in dysfunctional family, or simply kids that are hurt and need some love. i just have this soft spot for them...ah well...i sure hope i'm not going into the wrong profession by doing art :(

then again....i am so easily inspired...like how as i watch Army Daze and some channel U 11pm police academy drama, i am very much tempted to sign on with the army cos their life don't seem so bad after all. but i BET...if any of the army boy friends i have read that..they will say YOU THINK SO FUN AHHHHHHH. meh....u'll never know until u try ;p