having super duper mixed feelings about going back home, esp since I now know that the next time I probably will be returning would be for a very long time. having been away from home and all things familiar for a whole year made me realise that people do adapt and slowly but surely, we learn to make do without certain things. While I had previously thought that I might die without local food, I soon realised that it's not that big a deal, especially not that I have the chance to cook my own meals and have a taste close to home.

then again, the grass always seems greener on the other side. Back in America I wanted to come back. Now that I'm back home, I'm longing for the huge, clean and neat room I have in the states, the cool weather etc. I guess I kinda got used to the quieter and slow life in the states. Singapore seems super duper fast paced and everyone is so grumpy :(

As I soaked in my last remaining hours in Singapore, I learnt to appreciate the accessibility of things here. I know where to find my cheap stuff, the kinds of food, the small neighbourhood shops that practically sell every single genre of items that you will need in life. I'm such a sentimental fart. I don't think it's the lifestyle or qualities in Singapore that I really miss, but the nostalgia of the 19 years of my life spent here in this place. Watching Singapore change, being able to find the tiniest hints of my past in the small and colorful sugar icing biscuits, the smelly markets and so much more.

the scary thing about living in a foreign land is its foreignness. It's pretty cool at times (usually only when you can boast to your friends stuck back home), but at the same time, it doesn't feel very much different. I come home with hardly new and exciting stories to tell. I still lead the same kind of life albeit I have to be more independent. I'm in the states for school and so, I go through what you guys go through. I go to school, I get homework, I do them, I prepare for exams. sooo..why do people expect me to be different when i return? I don't see much of a change in them when i come back anyway.

anyhows...i think i've gained back all hte weight that I lost in the states within this one month. goodness knows the amount of food I've eaten back here :S

1. Hokkien Mee
2. Carrot cake (white)
3. Carrot Cake (Black)
4. Roasted Chicken Rice
5. Roast Duck, Char Siew, Sio bak rice
6. Satay
7. Otah
8. Chicken Wings
9. Stingray
10. Crayfish
11. Tutu kueh
12. Banana Ball
13. Ondeh ondeh
14. Laksa
15. Fishball noodles
16. Ban Mien (dry)
17. Ban Mien (soup)
18. Fried Rice
19. Ee mee
20. Chilli Crab
21. Kuay Chap
22. Cereal Prawn
23. Hot plate tofu
24. McSpicy
25. Mee Siam
26. Roti Prata
27. Roti John
28. Nasi Lemak
29. Char Kuay Teow
30. Fried Orh Lua
31. Mixed rice and dishes
32. Popiah
33. Goreng Pisang
34. Kueh Dadar
35. Sugar Donut
36. Mee Goreng
37. Naan
38. Taandoori Chicken
39. Masala Prata
40. Kaya Bread
41. Har gao
42. Siu Mai
43. Char Siew Sou
44. Yong Tau Hu
45. Curry Puff

etc etc etc. and even after listing all these down I still haven't eaten quite alot of things though every time it's time to go out for a meal my mind blanks out. next time need to write down :S

i don't think it's so much of a "oh-i-miss-eating-this" for most of them. it's more of a..."i-dont-have-a-chance-to-eat-this-in-a-long-time" kinda thing. lol. ahh..so fat naooooo