forgetfulness- a double edged sword?

my cg(06S16) mates have complained that my blog is depressing and they said they can't believe it that i'm like that cause i'm usually cheerfully mad in school. then again, there was only one depressing entry as far as i recall =S

just to inform all u darlings out there. my blog is my place to rant or just to spend my time away. so don't worry if i ever have a depressing entry or an angsty entry =)

i supposed it's pretty good to be forgetful. i have just realised in pure horror. the reason why my emotions don't last long is because i forget it easily. perhaps it is why i feel my brain completely degenerating and disappearing into the oblivion. still, it's no wonder why because i barely use it and when i do....it really hurts (haha. yea rite) nah. it doesn't . i just am too lazy to continue thinking about it. it's such a pain in the ass to think. esp since i've never found the answer. then again..maybe i didn't wait long enough to find the answer =S

still. forgetfulness is bad. esp since i'm still a student who is require to "dead read" direct translation from chinese (si3 du2). i realised with horror that i forgot how to apply my a maths to the maths i know now. dear me. this is badddddd... =(

you know, i was thinking (wow...) this morning when i re-read the msg that amy sent. "send my regards to the rest in SA' in a way..i understood that perfectly. yet. i don't. what on earth is a regard? i need a dictionary =S

peer pressure has gotten into me recently. oh deer dear. seeing everyone around me carrying ipods and zens....it's made me really want to have one of my own. to be able to have christian songs with me without needing to bring a stack of CDs or this bulky cd player which i am pretty embarassed about now with all them small thingys. a cd player is pretty much outdated. practically ancient if u ask me. sadly, i checked out the prices and WHOA. even the cheapest ain't cheap. i don't require those that can store photos and videos, just music. and i'm still unable to afford one. all these worldly desires are coming into my head. all that wanting acceptance and all..bad bad. watching "bedazzled" sort of woke me up. even if it was a stupid retarded show. God speaks in all sorts of different ways remember?!?!?!?