school has been a horror. being both physically and mentally draining. ok. i din do much physical stuff except to just move from class to lectures to cafe and eat and laugh and act spastic. haha.

i thought i was pretty ok, until lit lesson, where i was truly discourage. i've been doing lit for the past wad...4 years? and i've barely improved, being continuously stuck at the "you have really good points, but you need to develop more. still, there is great potential in you". as encouraging as it may be to know that i do have "potential" in lit, i have yet to develop it...for the errr...2-3 years that i've been seeing that line? it didn;t help knowing that my 2 best friends who take lit are the top lit critics in class. i feel stupid, and it was all the more discouraging to see so many ticks and "good"s or "v,good" or "good point" or "wise points" (gee..i'm really practising my quotations =]) whereas my paper had "vague"s and "QUOTE!" or i don't know...funny comments on my paper. i realyl felt like shit and i wanted to cry =( and to make things worse, we were doing a poem on mutability. and i caught no balls whatsoever as to what it saying. so...to show my frustrations and great efforts of analysing the poem, i had to frown, catching our dear ms chua's eyes. and GEEEEE...she just HAD to call me. and of course, i didnt' disappoint her by returning her a very "noooo...why me" sort of face. haha. still, ms chua's nice =)

i'm really thankful to God for being my source of comfort and strength and support the past few weeks of school. it's so tiring and there's this great sense of emptiness when i didn't have Him beside me.(i sort of...err...wandered off). quiet time had never felt better. it's always great especially when you're down and out and somehow, He really does restore and i feel complete and eager to do everything for Him once again =)

my friends may make me feel insecure, but i really thank God for blessing me with friends that are always the top scorers. i mean, they may be smart, but still, they aren't snobbish and they are willing to help me out in my studies. which. heh. i DO gain from =) haha. and it helps even more that they are always so encouraging, never failing to just cheer my life in JC up. i mean hey. who does that sort of miming to "heal the world" or try to get abs by coughing and doing sit-ups at the same time just for entertainment purposes??? then again, i'm usually the only one doing such rubbish while they cheer me on and laugh. still. that makes me feel happy =)

God has blessed me with a great class and teachers as well. they're always so encouraging. haha. always there to offer us encouragements and advice and just listen to our rubbish....well..mine at least. i have the best chinese teacher, the best (and not fierce) lit teacher, a very encouraging chem tutor, a bug-eyed fierce yet good bio teacher, a realyl open and nice chinese teacher (who lets us scream in class while we watch a slapstick comedy haha) and of course, a wonderful class who is so united, a GREAT CCA with so many encouraging seniors, and of course, seniors who really show their love towards me. haha. i'm super pampered by them =)

ok. it's time to get back to carbohydrates and tutorial 3....LIPIDS...here i come!!!!!!!!! (oh wait...they are already here with me...DANG...get lost.)