poly? or jc?

bah. i'm xianed from all that lit notes research. i don't really care about the history of rome. and i hate reading those superbly wordy websites and still get no info that i require out of it =(

you know. now that it's not exactly confirmed whether i want to stay in jc or go to a poly, it's oh-so-temtping to run away to a poly cos that would mean i dont have to really study now or pay attention in classes since i won't exactly need it if i were to go to poly in the end. plus. the idea of PE and chinese lessons and boring lectures ain't a tad bit interesting to me. not to mention the horrible things that i am struggling to understand.

doing such homework isnt enjoyable to me, and i'm imagining myself having much more fun doing my poly projects. still. i'm afraid it'll turn into one of those "why did i join aep" kind of feeling.

there are 3 grps of people. 1 grp telling me to go to a jc cos i can still go to poly after i finish 2 years of JC. and it's easier to go to a university. grp 2 is telling me to go to a poly since i enjoy doing what i plan to do there. plus, it's easier to get a job with a diploma rather than an a level cert...which pretty much is nothing. as for grp 3. they aren't giving much advice, other than "it's all up to you. what do u want to do in the future?" GEE....i wish i don't have to work and worry about all that crap. =(

if i go poly, i would still be able to attend SFC. the seniors said i can come back. yay. problem is. will my poly timetable allow that? and without SFC's and SA christian environment to spur me on with my walk with God.....will i die out? as it is, i'm already dying and struggling to survive. wouldn't it be worse without support then? results will prob be out on friday or next monday. i can't wait. it better be out soon. i'm DYING.....