organising!

i realised during qt today, that God allows things to happen for a reason. even if it means having me to commit a sin =( u see. if i didn't fall into temptation and actually succumb to it,today's qt wouldn't be imapctful at all. and i also realised that when God promised that He will take u by the hand and lead u every step of the way, He will do that. As temptation lurked, His voice was loud and clear, warning me. yet, i ignored it. and i sufferred the consequences for it i could feel the fear and guilt. i felt God withdraw His presence from me. and likewise, i couldn't bring myself to do my queit time because i felt so ashamed. yet, thanks to the teachings of church and SFC, i knew that God would forgive me and i could still return to Him =) God made use of this chance to teach me. and i'm thankful for it. not only did He try and prevent me from committing the sin, He also taught me stuff about obedience, and the rewards that He used to attract me. It hit right in my heart and things are different now.

it's cool how u know it's really God when u can always remember that particular verse even though u never bothered remembering it. to prove that it's really clear, let me tell u that i can't even remember the famous verse of john 3:16 clearly (partly because i've been influenced by so many versions everything is mixed up =S) anyway. to all the Christians out there. this verse made me decide to really try and give up the things that are wrong in the eyes of God. it's super difficult. but knowing what's at the end is what will give u strength to carry on =)
1 Thess 4:8 "Therefore, he who rejects this instruction (living a Holy life) does not reject man but God, who gives you His Holy Spirit."

anyway, i was packing my room. or rather. i tried to. cos i personally believed that i merely just spreaded the mess around the house. HAHAHAHA. let's look at the mess i created =S (this is already considered not as bad as previously. i already cleared up ALOT!!)



during this packing, i realised what a sentimental person i am. i'm so unwilling to throw so many things away. keeping even my spoilt specs that broke into half. harry potter style. only i dun have magic to repair it. nor can i use scotch tape to save it =( i also realised how useful the church sermons were. all these while my mind was always shut. i always had this mental blockage that church sermons were useless and boring. but when i looked through them i was WHOA. these stuff are USEFUL! so ok. from now on i shall try and stay alert during sermons. however boring they are.

man. it feels good to be organised =)