ahhhhhhhhh. application SUCKS.

for one...i don't even know whether or not i want to do art for the rest of my life and i have such limited options because i'm not exactly intelligent. most people whom i know (who are super smart...usually) tell me they're going to do medicine, law, business etc etc...and i'm doing art -_____-''' i don't even know if i have a future in art. even the art schools in Singapore don't attract/inspire me...OH WHYYYYY :(

on the contrary, musical theatre classes at lasalle has been a blast. nicole stinton is like the best teacher who tries to feed us with millions of info. NICOLE YOU ROCK!!!!!!!!!!! She's the most fantabulous teacher EVAAAAA..

i dread the dancing part (it's so depressing watching me dance cos i look like a man stuck in a damn ugly and vertically compacted body who feels damn awkward in the body :S ), but the singing and acting part is SUPERBLY fun. i might really really want to do theatre...but Singapore is such a lousy place for the arts..OH BOOOO..i need to go find a rich man and marry him while i pursue my artistic career. sigh..WHYYYYYYYYY.... why Lord did u bring us back to Singapore???? US is so much better for the arts :(

ah well...i reckon the whole acting thing builds up my confidence and made me more sociable. i'm such a happy person nowadays :) *BEAMS* ok...when i'm not doing application at least. hahaha.

On one hand there's absolutely no charm that any of the local art schools is attracting me with while the overseas one is like brimming with opportunities and wonderful surroundings to inspire you with...yet...as attractive as the whole idea of being overseas is...i'm so afraid of being alone by myself...lost and all. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO APPLY FOR A STUPID ATM CARD IN SINGAPORE...how am i even going to figure out how to live by myself overseas???

boo hoo :(