blah. housing issue ain't going very well. 

we need to sign the contract soon and put down our deposit etc in order to get the hse because alot of people want it :( 

the problem? we're on a one year contract with the dorms and we might not be able to get out of it. if that's the case, none of us can afford paying both the dorms and the rental and utilities and meal plan. that's a whole load of money :( stress stress

and then there's the weighing out of options. there's worrying about furniture and stuff. i don't think i'd enjoy the idea of coming to a sparsely furnished house where i have a yoga mat as a bed and a box for a desk. michelle says she'll be able to get furniture for us so i'm really hoping to rely on her. otherwise it's ikea or craigslist for us...and the bank declaring me bankrupt. 

somehow i feel uneasy about it, rushing into this so soon and all. there's also peer pressure because michelle and ally wants so badly to move in there. then there's the whole issue of roommate issues. i'm starting to doubt the possibility of me tolerating the madness in the house. on one hand they are the people i hang out with but on the other hand, i don't think i can stand living with them 24/7. i guess this is how having your own room would come in handy. 

grrr...growing up is no fun. there's so many things to handle. if i get a job i'd have to handle stupid complicated tax forms too. sigh.

dear God. my hands are only these small. too many things are coming at me all at once and i don't know how to deal with it.

do pray.