went for my first session of open model at wallin. nude drawing isn't as bad as i imagined it to be, but that doesnt lessen the awkwardness.

we had a female model at first who was fat. my eyes popped the moment she undressed. all the little dimples and cellulite. It's gonna be a pain to do a detailed rendering of her form. gosh. after seeing her i dun think my mum is fat anymore, and it's also a great motivation to never become like her. she was seriously damn fat. like even when she was standing her pubic area became just a teeny tiny triangle. THEN THEN THEN. while i was drawing her boobs, i noticed how HUGE her nipple rings are. like the brown circle around the nimple. except hers was weirdly PINK. and and and...it was huge. like the size of the base of a water bottle. IT WAS THE HUGEST nipple circle i've ever seen. OMG......seriously felt damn weird drawing a nude person cos every curve of the body led u to a new discovery which was more shocking than the last. 

it pretty much got mundane after a while...and slowly, u stop caring about it. and just when i finally got used to her curves the male model stepped in. 0.0 

i got nervous, and oh my gosh. when the model stripped i wanted to die. 

for once in my life i am HAPPY TO BE A GIRL. that thing is HIDEOUS. OMG...it was nothing from what i expected it to look like. till now i can;t get the image out of my head. it was soo sooo sooo soo sick. ACK. IT WAS HUGE. and as i was drawing i could think of nothing other than how that thing can fit into any girl's hole without hurting. IT MAKES ME WANT TO REMAIN A VIRGIN FOREVER. omg...damn sick. makes me wonder why God couldn't create something nicer and easier for usage. now i know why guys scratch their crotch. that thing is so huge it's in their way of walking! now i truly understand the pain of the poor NS men when they have to do their road march. how they do it, i don't know. 

oh my tian...HELP ME GET HIS THING OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!!