yay. housing is settled. i feel like a huge burden is off my chest right now. 

so ok. peer pressure is a terrible thing and i didn't want to be a horrible roommate and suddenly back out on the housing thing when everyone was so keen about getting it. soo....as i laid in bed fretting about it and asking God to help, He did. 

michelle and i went to talk to the residence and housing department and we found out that there is no way to move out of the dorms next quarter unless you want to pay both the dorms and the rental costs of the house. so yeah. it's a more than valid reason to tell everyone else that we can't move next quarter. phew

it's funny how my roommate is playing some song about not worrying about a thing cos everything will be alright. indeed it has.

thanks for the prayers!

i miss having many friends to rely on. i realised last night with great frustration that i have no other outlet except my blog where all my good friends can hear me out. being with michelle the past few days has been rather frustrating. being the blunt selfish me and the super sensitive her is not exactly the best combination that friends can find. we pretty much sound like a long time dating couple quarrelling about why she's so emotional why she complains about me being so heartless and emotionless that it's just so hard to figure out what i'm thinking or feeling. 

half the time when she's angry or sad i just feel like an asshole because i;m such a lousy friend. i don't want to tell her that i'm starting to have doubts about moving in with her because of her reactions. i know she's going to be very upset about it. I know because i know the way she is and i've pretty much joked with her about it and she thought i was serious and her reaction was pretty much how i expected it to be. 

i just need my own space to work and not be disturbed. 

blah.