bloody hell. i just typed my entry and my comp just had to re-start. lousy comp.

anyway. christmas family gathering sucked la. i just hate family gatherings. fulllstop. i seriously cannot imagine how i'm gonna survive if they are going ahead with the yeo family retreat thingy. i'll DIE. seriously.

other than that, christmas was..just christmas. same old one. gift exchange, celebrations, outreaches. but i still love God =) happy belated birthday =)

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holiday was ok too. not fantastic. hotel management was screwed..but to our advantage. we got upgraded free of charge to a 3 bedroom. thus, i managed to get a room all to myself. MUAHAHAHA.

had the most fun at the safari. i love animals =) hahaha. need i say more? i got to carry a gibbon, yellow python or wadeva snake, 2 parrots, pet a iguana, chihuahua, hornbill, elephants and an eagle, feed elephants and ride on a elephant. haha. i have never been so interactive with animals before. great new experience =)

thus. my new ambition is to be a zookeeper =)

the water theme park wasn't that bad either. though water ain;t my cup of tea. i hate it in fact. but i managed to overcome my fear and just try out the slides and all. with or without the tube floats. i was ok with the tube float rides. i know i was safe. it was more of the without the tube floats that i almost died. i had a major wedgie the first one and i almost died in the second. in both my heart stopped and i believe i din breathe as well cos i sort of forgot to in my fear.

food was great. i totally PIGGED out. and we bought quite alot of stuff cos it's seriously damn cheap =) my bro was going mad. he went mad during fireworks too. which took place every night we were there. so yea. quite sick of fireworks now. so sad that the horse riding there was so pathetic i'd rather not ride. such a disappointment. i mean. handsome horse and all. but what fun isit going around in circles around a ring with a guy leading the horse by it;s reign. and it's for 1 hr. GEE. so fun. sense my excitement. so in the end we did archery. just to appease my younger brother. still. it was a brand new experience for me as well. though i have realised i suck at archery. hahahaha. nvm. it was fun.

God has really been good during the trip. He let it rain when we weren't out and stopped the rain when we were having out activities. and He did a miralce for me, making it so smooth to get out of malaysia and back to singapore so that i could get to my cg mates early =) God rocks.
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camping out at east coast wasn't as fun as it was previously. perhaps it's cos there were non-cg people there???? i don't know. but i felt out of place until sarah and deb and liz came. i didn;t like the fact that amy and christina were whispering to one another and you have no idea what the hell is going on. nvm. i still love both of them =)

we had some trouble with the tents, but christina and kelvin fixed there easily, while the rest of us just stood at a side and watched, feeling amused. we played 6-up, uno and black jack till the rest arrived. with kelvin making us to pumping as forfeits. it's stupid cos just becos he wanted to train himself doesn't mean we had to as well. but nvm la. it's a good time for me to exercise. much as i hate it.

the ij girls had a talk and we sort of shared how 2005 was for us and we reflected and all. pretty meaningful and i was open to alot of stuff that i didn't know about =) waited around for nick for his haagan daaz ice-cream that arrived only at 3 something to 4 in the morning. haha. it was quite hard to sleep. considering the fact that we had not just our people in the shelter since it was raining, but also a bunch of other people who were being very inconsiderate. they were playing music loudly while we were trying to sleep, PUFFING cigarrettes as though they were chimneys and talking very loudly. we were all quite pissed with them. most of us only managed to get 1 or 2 hrs of sleep. i managed with 1 =( at least my tent was spacious (duh-uh. only amy and i in a 4 men tent. hahahaha)

all of us were all damn dead when we went to church for service. imagine...a cemetary of corpses just slomping to the sanctuary, trying so hard to keep awake. it was a pretty amusing sight i must say.

went to sarah's hse to slack and accompany her. we talked alot of cock there before i K.O.ed for 1 hr whereby i woke up being high and drunk and totally unglamed myself. as usual, i got videoed by sarah's phone. my goodness. i should delete those files. i can't belief the person i was watching in the phone is me. so embarassing!!!!!!! but at the same time, it's pretty amusing to see how disgustingly retarded i can get. hahahahaha.

cheap thrill....CHEH. and GUESS WAD??????!!! i bought my first cup of ice-blended mocha from coffeebean today. it's not my first cup la. but it's my first cup that i bought and finished all by myself. my first 2 were shared with my mum and my bro respectively. har har. a great way to start the year off =)
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let's reflect.

2005 has passed so quickly, and i must say that i really really had a great time. i mean, new cg and all. to be honest, i was really happy with the arrangement of the cgs and we just grew alot in the beginning of the year. we had loads of fun and all and it was just amazing how sarah and i became close friends all over again =)

every single event that took place brought me a step closer to God. i mean, like my grandma's death, studying with sarah and daniel, the theme of growth in yf, leaders retreat etc etc. it's just amazing. i've never studied so much in my entire life, nor have i done so much effective qt. my eyes and heart have been opened and it's so amazing when God reveals something.

i'm really thankful for my cg for being there. esp since i didn't take part in any arc competition so i was sort of drifting away from my brudders. they provided the support that i need. with amy, kelvin and christina's continuous encouragements, the support shown from the entire cg, the motivation from all the sec 4s to study. amazing. and i prob wouldnt grown closer to God if it weren't for the cg. i really really love my cg =)

it's a brand new year, brand new environment. i'm scared yet excited.

i know for sure that i will have a bunch of friends in SA where i can depend on, so i know i won;t be lonely, yet, i don't know what to expect at the same time and that's what's making me scared. will i be able to achieve what i have to, what i planned to?? i dunno. let's set some goals shall we.

- do qt at least half an hour 3 days a week.
- continue attending yf regularly
- serve more in publicity
- exercise at least 2 times a week. har har har
- be discipline in my studies and know my limits.
- to make at least 3 new friends in jc.
- to bring down 3 more people to yf and have at least 1 staying on with us
- start a prayer grp in SA
- be accountable to the fellow girls in yf.
- stay focus on God and know what's right from wrong and be given the willpower to withstand temptations so i can glorify God.

that's all i have for the moment.
happy new year!
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