third day of orientation

lo and behold. third day of school. funny how it seems to be longer than that =S

i rushed off to school in the morning for fear that i would be late for morning worship. and surprise surprise. although we only left my estate 1 min earlier..i managed to get to school like more than 10 min earlier! in fact, i was early for morning worship. PRAISE GOD! haha. at first there were like a pathetic amount of people, but soon enough, people started flooding into the room even during worship and the entire LT was packed. WAY COOL!

we had cip in the morn. ahaah .yea. we walked all the way to toa payoh from SA to the blks to collect newspaper. it was like 18 floors, but u see, the section nanthini, joycelin, julia and i took had just 2 units per floor. HAHAHA. and most people weren't in. either that or there are super hard on hearing oldies living in those flats. people there are pretty unfriedly though. they go mei you mei you and slam the door in your face. and u have to go....err...THANK YOU =) weird. still, it was a nice chance for the 4 of us to talk and bond. i realised that i can only interact in small grps. no wonder i've been having problems fitting in to the OG. OH WELL.

we were basically stoning. ok. i was at least. the others were in grps. i was like a loner or smth. i seriously think i'm anti social. i dunno. i just don't like the idea of just barging in to a grp's conversation and feel totally out and extra. we went back...the guys in one group, the girls in another..and i errr...was sort of walking in between the boys. so there was like 2 boys in front of me, and the rest of the guys behind me. haha. felt so awkward. but it was highly amusing listening to what the guys were talking about. you know, the two in front of me were singing some song about falling in love with a girl, bringing her to macs, asking her to be his valentine, falling deeper in love. decide the two don't fit. find another one, get married, have kids. i know. boys. they are weird. still..it was highly entertaining. especially since the words rhymed. hahaha.

i dropped back to get back to the girls. i still felt extra there. oh boy. even the OGL doesn't make any effort to talk to the quiet ones. lousy. haha. no la. but i suppose if i were her i wouldn't want to talk to the quiet ones cos i'll just die. i don't know. being a counsellor seems so fun and everyone in counsel looks damn hyped and fun...RAH...but i suck la. can never make it in. plus. i heard SA counsel is like damn shiong. i dont think i'll be able to cope. plus, i'm a lousy leader. wait. i'm NOT a leader. ah wellz. i don't think i'll pass the auditions and interviews anyway. i suck remember??? hahah

we had some games and we played wet games. honestly, the only time i got wet was during a dry game cos i sat on the wet ground. haha. apart from that i was dry. i missed the waterbomb game cos i was helping others stick on their cups and i had no one to stick on mine. so in the end a few of us who didn't manage to play the wet game. so the other wet game i chose not to play la. cos my throat was all dry and it was those spinning spinning roll roll kind and i knew i would puke if i played. so ruth went an extra time for me. so i was sort of dry =)

my OG is so boring....bah. i was like super down and all, irritated by some people. and it was even more furstrating to hear from others how great and fun and wonderful their OG is. so demoralising. =( i got home with a heavy heart and had my dinner and drank finished my coke. coke doesn't taste good anymore. maybe it's the mood =(

went to do qt after my bath. felt damn tired and all la. have been happening like tat since school started. but somehow i always feel renewed and awake after QT. God renews and restores indeed =))) i've lost my devotion book la. so i'm like reading some book that i borrowed from the library on prayer. anyway. i started off by writing what i felt, what i wanted to tell God and i just wanted to complain to him, to ask him questions and all. it';s depressing. i did that cos i didn't feel like praying and i knew i wouldn;t be able to concentrate because of all hte problems and annoyance i was feeling. after writing my journal i wanted to go read the book, so i prayed to quieten my heart la, but somehow i felt that God wanted me to stay and talk to Him rather than read the book. so i did. it was really refreshing and all and i wanted to play the planetshaker's song: "please don't pass me by". somehow that song spoke to me and i felt the Holy Spirit touching me, healing me of my hurts and giving me passion for God. QT the past few days have been really fruitful and wonderful and i really thank God for it cos it brought joy and hope to my all so sad life in JC. never had such a great QT, at least it has never been so passionate and so personal before =) my God rocks. hahaha.